February 2012
2 posts
Tuesday the 14th of February
Hard day today.
I could talk about the fun stuff of valentines day but then it’ll remind me that my lovely boyfriend of 21 months didn’t get me anything. I could talk about how great my friends are, and there are the odd ones, especially tomm atm. I love him.
Today my so called bestfriend of three years told me that our friendship is not going to work and it can’t be fixed. Its...
Tuesday the 7th of February.
Good Evening.
I am well aware its been about one million years since I’ve posted but I really do not mind. I’ve started back at school for the year, and I’m really enjoying it so far actually. Being my last ever year of high school, students and teachers respect you way more and because we have complete control of our subject choices I really have nothing to complain about....
January 2012
4 posts
26th January 2012
I am seriously wondering why i’m online at three am. Meh fuck it. Not like i’m gonna get to slee anytime soon. I don’t realy have much to say today. Mostly coz i’ve literally spent all my time recently with my mother which really isn’t that fun. But whatever. Need to find something to do with my life. School does start soon though so fuck it. I’m just blabbing...
20th of January 2012
Yesterday my boyfriend and I celebrated the 20th month of our relationship. We had to count how many months its been coz to be honest neither of us can keep track anymore. When asked, we tend to tell people we’ve been dating for about 2 years coz it’s kinda just like that now. We went to Strawberry Fare with the fam which was lovely.
We had a brief discussion last night about the...
16th January 2012
Last night I had an odd dream.
There were some crazy evil people trying to take over the world and they were successfully doing so by finding out peoples problems and making them bigger and dealing with them. My boyfriends was ‘commitment issues’ and mine was ‘paranoid’. The evil people eternally bonded us or something so that we were invisibley attatched (thats kinda the...
12 January 2012
Happy New Year! I know thats a little late, but seeing as this is my first post this year what can I do?
I can’t say I’ve been up to much recently to be honest. A lot of playing the sims and doing nothing.. its been very uneventful. Fiji was absolutely wonderful and amazing and nice and hot, but now its time to start getting settled into the real world and stuff.
The first way that...
December 2011
9 posts
30th december 2011
Bula!
I’m currently in fiji and have been since christmas day. Its so warm here allowing me to get a bit of a nice tan. Still all good with my boyfriend. I thought we would have been sick of each other by now. He has been taking the whole looking after me thing very seriously though which can get a bit suffocating. I tend to like having my own time alot and haven’t really had alot of...
22nd December 2011
Had a very interesting day today. I’m not really sure how I feel about it to be honest, its kinda just ugh.
I heard a rumor that my boyfriend had gone streaking with his best friend who happens to be a girl. I freaked the absolute fuck out, because he doesn’t exactly have a clean record of not cheating, so I hit him up about it and he flipped at me. He said it wasn’t true but...
16th December 2011
Kiaora. Haven’t written since my last big rant, mostly because I’ve been too lazy, but also because I haven’t had that much to talk about..
My sleeping has been so ridiculous the past few days, last night I was still awake at 5.30am. I was getting so upset and frustrated because I was ridiculously tired but I could not get to sleep. The lighter outside it got, the harder it was...
11th December 2011
I have been weirdly absent for the past few days, which is odd coz I can’t really recall why.
Recently I have been worrying a lot about my future, mostly focussing on university and career stuff. Although I have had the same idea in my mind since I was a little girl, for some reason I am starting to have second thoughts. I am extremely happy with my chosen career path, but I worry that I...
8th December 2011
My sister has this boy who comes over all the time, whom we always catch cuddling and kissing. He was over again today, and I had to take them out with me because mum didn’t want them to be home alone. This is such a pain. My sister is supposed to be grounded but yet she is still allowed to have people over, which i find very frustrating.
Having major boy problems tonight with that guy....
7th December 2011
So today I am feeling much better about myself.
I’m not really quite sure about how my mind has been wandering so much recently, and why I’ve been needing to sleep so much, but I am feeling so much better. However, I am still extremely tired. I’m still going to need to catch up on this.
I’m looking forward to seeing my friend on saturday. Sometimes seeing him is hard...
6 December 2011
It’s time to get real.
Recently this blog has turned into what I did during the day, and not exactly how I felt. Although he’s never seen this blog and I do not at all intend on showing him, the fact that I have no where to share my emotions worries my boyfriend a lot. Because recently I have been refusing to talk to him about stuff. This isn’t for any particular reason to be...
4th December 2011
It’s been a wee while since I have written anything, but I have been rather busy.
Last night was the Christ’s College leavers ball, which was actually pretty fun. Despite the fact that my partner was keen to get into me. But how can I blame him, I did lead him on big time and I’ve still got that issue to work out. It sucks. I chilled with year 13s again afterwards, which was...
1 December 2011
Only 24 more days until Fiji.
Today, because I wasn’t made a prefect I was given the opportunity to become a peer support leader. Of course I took this up, and I am so excited. I’m kinda hoping for head of peer support within our house, so hopefully, but we’ll see how that goes! woo! I’ve been busily organising it all all night. I’m not even going to go into detail...
November 2011
8 posts
30th of November 2011
After having a very long day of being super bored and doing a puzzle… (wtf)… I finally got to see my boyfriend. It was only really for a brief moment because bussing takes a lot longer than we anticipated, but it was still extremely great to see him.
I then babysat for a while, and this was super easy. It made me realise how much I love children and how much I want to be a mum when...
29th of November 2011
I’m starting to get so fucked off with everything again.
After all the issues my boyfriend and I have had, we’ve barely spent any time together. And anytime we’ve spent has been with other people so we haven’t had ‘us’ time. Unfortunately though, he doesn’t want to make time for me because he has started this whole ‘making his life better’...
27th November 2011
Today we went on a big family lunch for my nana’s 70th birthday. It was rather delicious but did take an awfully long time because the service was really, really bad.
A friend of mine is feeling very down. He’s been like this for a while and says he has ‘manic depression’, so he’s like, bi polar. This does not bother me one bit as it does not effect our friendship...
24th November 2011
GUYS OF MY GOD, WHAT THE FUCK I’M GOING TO FIJI!!
Thats right :D my dad said he’ll put some money towards it. Oh my goodness. I’m looking forward to this so much. It’s just gonna be me and my boyfriend and two other friends (oh and a mum - but she does her own thing) wandering around in FIJI for a week for christmas and new years. FUCK YES!
Today was a pretty normal day....
23rd November 2011
My sleeping was worse than the night before. I think I got about two and a half hours sleep or even less. Of course waking up in the morning was not fun, especially because of my exam, but I somehow managed to pull through. I have no idea how this exam went of course, I feeling it could go either way depending on how much I repeated myself and how much is actually fact not fiction. Im good at...
22nd November 2011
Today I was rudely awoken at 12.40pm by my parents. I gotta say, if I hadn’t been woken up I would have slept in a lot longer. This is because I have been an insomniac for the past two years and last night I was still up at 4am. I think that I have something called ‘Exploading Head Syndrome’ which is pretty much where you here things in the night when you are trying to sleep. Of...
21st of November 2011
I tend to have trouble trying to fully explain what is going on in my head. And although people think they know what is going on, they really do not. To be honest, everything is a lot more complicated than what people think, and no body never really knows me that well. Except maybe one person, and I almost gave him up. Hopefully though, but writing this blog I will be able to try and get my...